TW: pet illness, pet death, pet loss, and pet grief.

This post is very late. At the beginning of July last year, my beloved cat, Lucy, suddenly had to be put to sleep; and when I say suddenly, I mean I found out on the Tuesday and had to take her into the vet for the final time on the Wednesday. It was a horrible, deeply distressing experience that I still don’t feel like I’ve recovered from and then, suddenly, I was thrust into my EP release and all of the work that came with that. But the year went downhill with a pinched nerve in my back and an awful, painful stomach problem, both of which went on for months. So, although it was great to finally have my EP, Too Much And Not Enough, Vol. 1, out in the world, it was a very stressful, very difficult six months and I just haven’t had the energy, the emotion, or the executive function to write about this until now. I wrote about half of this before everything else really took me out of commission and then I had to spend months on my back, trying to recover but in too much pain, feeling too sick, and on such strong medication that I couldn’t think clearly enough to write anything at all. But I still wanted to get this finished and posted because it was a really significant experience, a really difficult time with a lot of difficult emotions to try and manage. I’m still working through it and to not write about it feels a little like I’m doing Lucy a disservice. That’s probably not super healthy but it is how I feel right now. So I’ve finished writing this post and I’m putting it up…

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